This morning as I began to pray the strangest words popped into my head. “Dear God, I don’t want to be a hollow Easter bunny.”
Really? This is what I’m praying? Easter bunnies?
I suppose I should let you know that I don’t always think or pray in words in my private prayer time (now you see why). Instead, I pray mostly in image and metaphor. Today’s image happened to be a hollow Easter bunny, but if you dive deeper into the metaphor, it is a very apt prayer.
I remember as a child getting one of these bunnies in my Easter basket. The shiny foil wrapper begged me to unwrap the delicious chocolate hidden inside. I remember reaching out for the first bite, ready to sink my teeth into a solid chocolate ear only to have my teeth snap together when they broke through the chocolate too easily.
And while the chocolate was wonderful, there’s always a bit of disappointment when I found out it was hollow. Or when you open the wrapper and find that the chocolate has sustained injury and crumbled in upon itself.
What if we are like those hollow Easter bunnies? Beautiful on the outside, but hollow on the inside. I don’t want to be a hollow Easter bunny.
I want to be filled. But if you’ve ever tried to fill yourself with the typical human things: food, drink, adventure, etc., you know that you know that the filling is only temporary. It’s great while it lasts, but all too soon it’s gone.
So I pray to be filled by God. And I pray this daily not because God does not last, but because I don’t. I too easily get distracted by things that take me out of the presence of God. I pray this daily because no matter how full I think God has filled me, I know I can be filled more. I pray this daily because it is my hope to pass along some of this God-ness to everyone I meet.
And to be honest, I can tell a big difference on the days I do not pray this. Those are the days I do end up eating too many chips or chocolate or cookies because I feel this hollowness inside of me and I desperately want to be filled. But it doesn’t work. I just feel heavy, whereas being filled with God makes me feel light.
Have you prayed some version of this prayer? If not, I encourage you to try it for a week or so when you first wake up. See what happens.